Confusion

Now is the time,
In a moment it'll be gone.
When I want all of you,
And then I wouldn't want to
See you at all.

You come and you go,
In ways I never want you to.
To places I don't want you to see,
And words,
I don't want you to hear.

I cut your strings to my heart,
Then again,
I tie my knots.
And you simply brush through me,
Letting go of my thoughts.

This confusion,
Runs as poison in my veins,
Clearly killing me,
Still keeping you in what remains.